Alcoholics earn their sobriety everyday. It is how they unfuck themselves. If it is so for them, then it is so for me. Drink is not my issue, but my name is Mark, and I've been unfucked for one day. I let my attention slip a week ago - busy doing other things - and not adding to this page... well, that's fucked.
The thing about living a fucked life is the number of excuses right at hand to excuse your fucked self. I've been on the road: Albany to Cincinnati to Chicago. I've been re-furbishing the exterior of my home. I've been out trying to drum up work. And as true as all that is, the basic truth, the ground-floor truth, the primal one, the brain stem one is that I haven't written in a week and when that happens I am not living my life, but instead am being lived by it.
UYL Rule #5 - Treat your recovery the way alcoholics treat theirs: day by day, everyday.
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Listen to this:
"Now is the time to get serious about living your ideals. Once you have determined the spiritual principles you wish to exemplify, abide by these rules as if they were laws, as if it were sinful to compromise them.
Don't mind if others don't share your convictions. How long can you afford to put off who you really want to be? Your nobler self cannot wait any longer.
Put your principles into practice - now. Stop the excuses and the procrastination. This is your life! You aren't a child anymore. The sooner you set yourself to your spiritual program, the happier you will be. The longer you wait, the more you will be vulnerable to mediocrity and feel filled with shame and regret because you know you are capable of better.
From this instant on, vow to stop disappointing yourself. Separate yourself from the mob. Decide to be extraordinary and do what you need to do - now."
That's from my old pal Epictetus and his book, The Art of Living.
The art of living, unfuck your life - same thing. Our lives become fucked when we stop creating them and instead pass that responsibility to others, or worse, as I just did, simply not make the effort to create. Look, I could have made the time to add to this blog. I didn't. That was my choice.
What are you choosing? Why are you wasting your time reading this? Decide to be extraordinary and do what you need to do. Now.